Forgiveness in marriage is Freedom. Episode 2

Yes it was more than two months i got married to Alex, there is this secret character which he had, he always use condom whenever he is making love to me not minding that am his wife, not just a wife but a legally married wife.
When i asked him while he is still using cond0m on me, he told me that he don't have money yet to train any child, he said he dont want me to give birth yet because, he will not
have the money to train the child or even send him to school.

The joy of every married woman is to be fruitful and to give birth to children, this thing
became a rare issue between me and Alex, i told him to have faith in God, the God that brings a child will provide for the child. Alex never gave ears to what i was saying.
This thing continued for some months, i never complained to anybody, i believe this is a personal issue which only me can solve, i didn't tell anyone about it, not even my parents.
This issue became a burden to me, what kind of woman will people tag me as? some will say am
barren, some will say am cursed, while some will be gossiping with my name.

I gave a thought to this issue on how to tackle it, but i came up with no idea, all i wanted is to
be pregnant and to give birth like other women. since i have no idea, i needed somebody that will help and advice me on what to do, i have a good friend called Sandra, she was a childhood friend but she never knew what i was passing through in my marriage.
Note:[If you dont share your problems with someone, your problems will remain with you].
So this thought flashed into my mind to share my problem with Sandra, i invited her to my house when my husband have gone to work, When Sandra came to my house, i told her everything, my good friend Sandra now gave me one ideal, she told me to apply this common sense, she said..........

....."whenever your husband is making love to you with that his so-called condom, look for a way to tear the mouth of the condom, if you can play safe and get this right, my dear you will become pregnant"......
oh! what a grate idea Sandra gave to me.
The next day i force my husband to make love to me, i was so thirsty to apply the ideal Sandra gave me, My husband Alex was a very sensitive man, although i was forcing him to make love to me, he never forgot to put on his cond0m,
During that awkward moment when he was making love to me, i never hesitate to apply the common sense Sandra gave me,

After he made love to me that night, within 3 months, i became pregnant, wow! what a miracle idea of Sandra, i couldn't believe it, after some few months, my stomach shoot out and it was now official that i am pregnant, when my husband noticed that am actually pregnant, another serious problem came up between me and him, he said he was never responsible for that my pregnancy, he said he always use cond0ms on me and he will not allow me to put him to shame, i told him he was the one responsible, as we were arguing on the matter, he raised his hands on me and gave me a dirty slap, this was the very first time
of Alex raising his hands on me.

The next day, Alex was ready for a divorce, he said he will divorce me because he noticed that i cheated on him and i allowed another
man to sleep with me, on that very day, he packed all my belongings and asked me to leave his house, i have no other option than to
tell him what i actually did, i told him everything and how it happened, he was very angry and he reminded me of what he told me earlier.

[Alex talking..........." I told you that i dont have money to train any child now"..... you must abort that child.
what! i shouted, i can never do it, i will never abort this child, that same day, he gave me money to go and do abortion or i leave his
house. What happened next is what you never expected.